I Only Wish I Could Trust

As the night grows darker
I fill it with vanity and lust
To hide from the deep pain 
Because I refuse to trust. 

The ache is just too strong!
I numbed, I cried, I cussed. 
I feel so weak and fragile 
But I still can't trust. 

I feel guilty it's all my fault! 
This pain is not unjust. 
I'm lost in another universe 
Where I just can't seem to trust.

I'm drowning, hopeless
My trophies collecting dust 
This could make me stronger. 
I only wish I could trust.